那种失落及空虚感怎么还会那么的强？

难道时间真的无法淡忘一切吗？

过了那么久却不曾忘记，所有的往事及回忆依然犹新。

究竟是真的无法忘记，

还是这一切只是自己一厢情愿的执着而已..

每年的今天都会特别的想你...
虽然明天还得去上班，但躺在床上仍迟迟无法入眠..以前和你一起的时光都一幕幕浮现在我脑海里。

还记得每年的今天，我都会想尽办法讨你开心，那时候是多么的美好啊..
可惜我知道这终归只是一场梦，最后还是得醒过来的，可内心里总是希望能永远沉醉在这梦境里，永远的不需要醒过来。
只可惜事情往往都是事与愿违...

虽说没你在身边的日子比起以前的确不一样了，但日子还是一样一天一天滴流逝..

随着岁月的流逝，需要做出越来越多的抉择，而且负担及责任也不停滴增加...
内心深处是多么希望能永远不需长大啊...

人总得需要也必须成长的，逝去的已无法挽回，我也只能在这祝福福你活得比以前更快乐及更精采..

最后在这跟你说声生日快乐。

It's been some time since the last update. Life still the same as usual. Every day, months, years past by yet nothing much has changed.

Today 21st Dec 2012 rumors all around the net saying that today will be the end of the world. Those who belive it will be worry about anything that might happen anytime in this day. As for me, I have nothing to worry about. Although there are many things that I wanted to do yet it's impossible to achieve in my life. If it's the fate what we have to go through, there's no way to escape from. We will just have to learn to accept it.

Can't be deny that I'm still miss-ing you time to time. It's totally beyond my control. If someone ask me do I really love you this much, yes I do! There isn't any reason that I can explain about these feelings. Some people might think that it's just a "puppy-love" and some might even think that I couldn't let go just because I my self want to deny the truth that I'm just a loser in this relationship.

Whatever it is, I don't really mind about others opinion or "criticize". I know what am I doing and I will never regret of what I has done. What's done is done. Even though today might be the doomsday, all I wanna do is just to let you know that knowing you is the best gift from god. The moments we used to spent together are the most precious and happiest things in my life. I never been and will never ever regret of knowing you.

There was once a sincere love that I did not cherish. Nothing is more painful than the feeling of regret only when it is gone... If I'm given a second chance to start everything all over again, I'll love you still. If theres must be a deadline for this relationship, I hope that it will be my entire life.. Love you with all of my heart, until my dying day...

It's been so long yet nothing much has changed... People changed, people leaved; and heart is broken but life still goes on.

I couldn't tell why am I still loving you but the only thing I can say is that You are the reason why I couldn't love anyone else...

When dreams have no end; forever, is never.

i never stopped loving you i just stopped showing it...

Behind my smile

is a hurting heart.

Behind my laugh,

I'm falling apart.

Look closely at me and you will see,

The person I'm ..isn't me...

有些事情,

不愿让它发生,发生了只能默默承受；

有些东西,

不想知道, 无意间得知后只能坦然接受；

有些人,

不能缺乏, 在失去后只能学着放手…

不纠缠不等于不爱

不纠缠，不证明我不爱妳。

不纠缠​，不证明我不伤心。

不纠缠，不证明我不想妳。

不纠缠，是我能够为我们曾经的爱，​

所做的最后一件事.

有时候一个人哭泣不是因为难过

而是仍然无法放下某些事情与回忆

有一些东西错过了，就代表一辈子错过了

有多少爱能够重来？？

就算有那么一天，我们已经不是过去的你和我

人是会变的，能守住一个不变的承诺

却守不住一颗善变的心

知道自己没有能力拥有的

也没有权力要求那么多

执着是一种负担，

放弃也许是唯一的解脱

否则苦了自己，也为难了对方

当无法拥有的时候，
放弃也许是唯一不让自己痛苦的方式...
该放弃的就放弃吧，
有时执着是一种伤害，
放弃也许是一种解脱！！

已经快要四月了，
时间过得真快...
不知不觉间又过了1年,
18年就这样过去了....

多希望能够永远的不用长大，
我不想变得成熟……
我只想活在一个非常单纯的世界里,
我不想让自己变得太复杂。

可事实并非如此，
我必须面对残酷的现实，
我已经无法回到过去了..

开始需要做出许多决择，
做每件事都必须三思了。
我知道我不能再活在过去，
不能再活在梦中了，
很多事情都必须学会放开及放弃了。

快要两年了..我还会不时地想起你..

还记得以前每次上线，我总喜欢到你的面子书个人网页，

不是每次都能看到你，因为你时常都暂停帐户。

只要能看到你的网页，我就心满意足了。

因为我不期望什么，为的只是想知道你的近况。。

虽然知道你在面子书及MSN删除了我，可我对你的心依然没变过...

就算依然可以发短信给你，可我没那个勇气..

我不曾信息你，可这不代表我的草稿箱里什么都没有，

我写了想发出去，只是在发出前转入草稿箱...

就简单的一句我想你，哪怕只是普通的问候，我都无法鼓气勇气，

因为我认为再说什么都是多余的，怕打扰到你只会让你厌烦...

其实这些只是骗自己的借口，

只是希望你主动一些，让我相信你还是想我的。

这也是我心里许久的问号，

不停的推测你心里有没有我，真想知道你究竟什么时候才会想起我，

还是只是我想太多？其实你并不知道我在想你，只是自己一厢情愿罢了...

我们的距离已经已经越来越远了,几乎远到我想不到的距离...

也许..

你活在一个可以没有我的世界，而我则活在一个只有你的世界...

这就注定了我是一个失败的人...

如果我能回到從前
If I can return to the past
我會選擇不認識你
I will choose not to know you
不是我後悔
Not that i regret
只是我不能面對沒有你的結局
Just that i cannot face the ending without you

從此以後
Since then
我們的幸福與彼此都無關了
Our happiness has nothing to do with each other

原來{愛}這個字
The word "Love"
與我遙不可及
couldn't reach for me
靜靜地想你，放上一段優雅的歌
think of you quietly, put on a graceful song
你的身影很模糊
Your shadow is fuzzy
但這並不影響我想你的情緒
But it doesn't affect the mood i missing you

我沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
只是在高興的時候突然想起你
Just that when I'm happy suddenly think of you
你是我第一個想分享的人
you're the first person I would like to share

我沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
只是在不高興的時候突然想起你
Just that when I'm not happy suddenly think of you
你是我第一個想傾訴的人
you're the first person I would like to talk to

我沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
只是聽歌的時候會突然想起你
Just that when i listening music suddenly think of you
不為什麼
Nothing much
只因為那歌詞裡寫的好像我和你
Just because the lyrics written alike me and you

我沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
只是在早晨醒來的時候會突然想起你
Just that when wake up early in the morning suddenly think of you
不為什麼
Nothing much
只因為夢裡出現的人好像是你
Just because the one appear in my dream like you

我沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
只是在看書的時候會突然想起你
Just that when I reading book suddenly think of you
不為什麼 Nothing much
只因為那書中的主角好像我和你
Just because of the protagonist in the story alike me and you

我真的沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
我只是走到某個路口的時候才會想起你
I only think of you when i walk to a junction
我只是看蝶到一半的時候才會想起你
I only think of you when i watching a drama
我只是聽歌到一半的時候才會想起你
I only think of you when i listening a music

我真的沒有很想你
I not really think of you lots
我只是在我不想想你的時候想起你
I only think of you when I'm not willing to think of you
這樣真好
How good is this

我沒有很想你
I never think of you lots
我只是想你到眼睛濕潤
I only think of you until my eyes are moist

想你
Miss you
但卻害怕讓你知道
But scared to let you know
所以不敢也不想打擾你
That's why don't dare to disturb you

只有把你的資訊藏在手機裡
Just kept all your messages inside the phone
想你的時候把它們翻出來滿滿的看
Looking at them slowly while think you
細細的品
"taste" it carefully
然後就不停的在偷笑，悲傷
and then non stop smiling , sorrow

只有把你經常放的歌保存起來
Keeping the songs that you always hear
一直捨不得刪去
Reluctant to delete it
哪怕是幾首很普通的歌曲
Even it is just very common music
想你的時候拿出來把它們放上一遍
play it whenever thinking of you
細細的品味
listen it carefully

只有在每個寂靜如水的夜晚等你的資訊
Waiting for your message every silence and lonely night
等來了
when it arrive
心裡是有一陣莫名的激動
A strange excitement in the heart
但壓抑著滿懷的高興給你發去淡淡的問候
suppressed a heart full of happiness and send you a light greeting
淡淡的玩笑，淡淡的吵鬧
"light" jokes , argue

等不來
If couldn't wait for the message
就只有帶著一絲淡淡的惆悵
Only with melancholy
在半夢半醒中睡去
and fall asleep in the stat of half awake

在沒有你消息的日子裡
In the days without your news
只有拚命的尋找你的點滴
can only keep finding for your news
裝作若無其事的打聽關於你的一切
Pretend nothing happened to find out everything about you
然後聽他們說你的點滴
and listen to them about your news
把這些點點滴滴全部刻在腦海裡
keep every single news of you inside the brain

我一直比你想像得更加愛你
I'm always love you more than u thought of
可是我卻不能告訴你
But i couldn't tell you ..
抬頭望著這個城市的雲
Looked up at the cloud of this city
呼吸著這個城市的空氣
Breathing the air of this city
也會想起你
will also think of you
想著它也會飄到你那裡
thinking of they'll blow to your place
哪怕是這樣
Even so
心裡還是暖暖的
the heart is still warm

此刻
Now
我想你
I miss you

但是我只是想你 But I'm only think of you
而不打擾你
But don't wanna disturb you

Long time never update d. But its just seem to be nothing change after such a long time never blog .I really wonder why , why couldn't I just let go..No words i write can ever say how much i miss you every single day..

Since the day you left, I wish i was dreaming but its real when i open up my eye..I still feel the pain for losing everything,why should I endure for this ending?

As time goes by,the loneliness grows ..You're always with me in my heart .Wonder what's your heart really thinking about? Do you still think of me? Do you dream of me every night as i always do?

Days after days , I'm still missing every single moment that we used to spent together .I even miss the arguments that we would have from time to time. Now, there's nothing left but just memories ..

I think that I will never love again. All I want is just being with you. I would sacrifice anything just for you. I'm always here if you need me. For now, the only thing I can do is guarding you even that I'm not together with you..

Times passes so fast.. It's almost a year since we break up.. Life is still the same, the emptiness in me is growing as days passes by... Wondering if u're the same and who's been with u right now...

You're once the most important person in my life , but I didn't realize it at time .. I can't forgive my self for the way I treated u.. I'm sorry about the pain I made u feel..

I guess u've forgotten about the times we used to share.. I really wanna let u know that how much i need u . Without u, everything seems strange,images of u appear once i close my eyes. Your name is forever planted in my brain, I will never ever forget about u. I ever thought that we're meant to be.. But now , I'll never know .. The only thing I wish is that u will be happy always even though u're not with me right now..

Time passed so fast..It's Christmas again..But I'm still can feel the way I used to feel... Sitting in front of the com , reading the older post ... Make me review alot about the past, the memories , the time that we used to spent together ..

Still remember .. the Christmas that we past together in happy ville..It's really fun & unforgettable .. Memories of you , keep appearing in my mind ..I remember all the memories we used to share..

Since the day we broke up , u changed a lot ... The distance between us seem to be further n further..I don't think there's any turning back between both of us .. Even there's a miracle , It will not be the same as the past because there's a crack or an invisible wall between us...

As someone said I'm stupid because no matter what i did or how i feel , nothing gonna change.. Maybe It's true but even though i know its kindda impossible for us to back together .. but I'm still missing u badly ..

Sorry for making u all to read such "long" post that i ever post .. To all my blog readers , stalker , passerby , I might not update this blog for a long time or this might be my last post .. Having SPM next year.. I have to concentrate on my study & stop thinking about other things ..

Lastly , I wanna tell u that .. nothing gonna change my love for u even u are not with me.. & i will b always missing u as i used to be ..

When I look back & think of the past, memories of you make me pain again. I remember all the moments that we used to share. I had given "all" my heart to you..But the relationship are as the sand holding on the hands, I just cant hold or let it go ...

So many things that i wanna say to you..I ain't got many friends left to talk to.. No one's around when I'm in trouble.. I'd do anything for you just for you to come back..

Something in my mind that's not making sense since I'm all alone since the day you left..You make me miss the past & i really want you to come back ...