Time passed so fast..It's Christmas again..But I'm still can feel the way I used to feel... Sitting in front of the com , reading the older post ... Make me review alot about the past, the memories , the time that we used to spent together ..

Still remember .. the Christmas that we past together in happy ville..It's really fun & unforgettable .. Memories of you , keep appearing in my mind ..I remember all the memories we used to share..

Since the day we broke up , u changed a lot ... The distance between us seem to be further n further..I don't think there's any turning back between both of us .. Even there's a miracle , It will not be the same as the past because there's a crack or an invisible wall between us...

As someone said I'm stupid because no matter what i did or how i feel , nothing gonna change.. Maybe It's true but even though i know its kindda impossible for us to back together .. but I'm still missing u badly ..

Sorry for making u all to read such "long" post that i ever post .. To all my blog readers , stalker , passerby , I might not update this blog for a long time or this might be my last post .. Having SPM next year.. I have to concentrate on my study & stop thinking about other things ..

Lastly , I wanna tell u that .. nothing gonna change my love for u even u are not with me.. & i will b always missing u as i used to be ..

When I look back & think of the past, memories of you make me pain again. I remember all the moments that we used to share. I had given "all" my heart to you..But the relationship are as the sand holding on the hands, I just cant hold or let it go ...

So many things that i wanna say to you..I ain't got many friends left to talk to.. No one's around when I'm in trouble.. I'd do anything for you just for you to come back..

Something in my mind that's not making sense since I'm all alone since the day you left..You make me miss the past & i really want you to come back ...

What's happening to me? Missing someone so badly even after months of waiting.. Waiting for something that will never come true. Days and months are passing by and I'm still in the same exact place i was months ago.Wonder why will i love someone so madly...

Tell me why'd you have to go? The pain i feel won't go away...I always thought that i could escape from this heartache , but i fronted long enough to know that there ain't no way and I'm still missing u badly..

Even though i don't know whether we can back together or not , whether far or soon , I need you to know that i care , and i miss you..

It's been about 8 months since u left me, but i don't feel any different....I miss you so badly.I try hard to keep calm, to speak out, but in the end I'm totally defeated..The drops deep in my heart are such gentle torture, I can't stop to think about u everyday even when i close my eyes i could see u.

I miss u with an incessant burning, almost all the remaining of me are ash..You are all that i want , u are all that i need ,can't u see that my pain is so real.. When i think of u, I really don't know what can i do...

爱一个人是痛苦的，
等待一个人是无奈的;
疼一个人是心碎的，
期待一个人是崩溃的;
爱一个不爱你的人，
是筋皮力尽的;
等待一个不爱你的人，
是望眼欲穿的;
疼一个不疼你的人，
是肝肠寸断的;
期待一个不回头的人，
是...无可奈何的;
忘记一个你爱过的人，
是...不可能的.......

Three weeks of exam finally ended, everything back to normal..As always, being lonely feel so empty within my self... Memorizing the past is the only thing i can do..

I hate weekends!! In the past i always look forward for it because i get to be with her.But now weekends is just dreadful, I'm left all alone......

What the true way to live a life?I'm really forgot about how to live & go through a agony everyday...Right now my life is all about study & study..but thats how life should be anyway..

I still shed a tear...every once in a while...Even though it's different now,u're still here somehow...My heart will never let u go, and i want to tell u straight from my heart...I miss u really really lots...

A day without u is like a day without sunshine..You might out of my sight but u will never out of my mind & my heart......

Loses love hardly reluctantly, listen to the love songs able to satisfy one second daydream...

What happened to me?Loving someone until I'm so immersed..U won't get tired. But, in contrast, I'm loving u till I'm exhausted...Why forever can't lay down?Even it not what i should do but still falling in love with u deeply without any hesitate...

Even though going through a hard time,but I'm willing to take the pain....

U 're able to make me not myself...I've never disregarded comfort and given my all to anyone except u..Maybe it can't be seen, it can only rely on feeling.. No matter what, no one could replace ur status in my heart....

BORING & LONELY holiday...Last time,I never thought that u are no longer with me..When i'm lonely, u' re not with me...I had tried many times to forget about u..But i really cant..No matter how much i miss u, nothing can change the fact that u had already left me.

I know at times u read my blog..I did know that u still have some feel on me..Even though we both had accepted the reason of seperating..But do u know how sad i feel?...

I miss the old days..I miss everything that i once had..I feel the pain for losing everything..I feel so empty...I feel so lonely...

I've forgotten how it started,maybe it was when I had some feelings for you& I suddenly discovered within myself that i falling deeply in love with u..Whether right or wrong, it's not my choice to make....

I'm incapable of not loving u nor missing u...I'm not willing to ever lose u...There's no way to be any happier,as long as we can't be together....Duration cant determine how much a person love someone...But it can really prove how important you're to me and how much i love u...

Not regretting falling in love with u...I miss you, I'll always be with u...Missing u..I'll never give up, the right to love you...

Got a question..keep struggling me...really don't know what to do..Even though i know i shouldn't be like that...Wonder when only will u think of me..will u miss me as much as i miss u..or just that i think too much..

Even i cant accept my failure,but i understand that thing will not always be the way we want it to be..even i don't accept my fate but i still have to...that the way thing is & nothing else i can do...

Everything not going well...Having fever for 3 days d...I did ate the medicine from doctor but..even though the fever gone but it only last for about 3~4hrs n i have to eat the medicine again to cool down my body temperature...Went for the doctor twice in 3 days,she also cant say exactly what happening and just said that some kind of "virus infection"..

Wonder if anything will happen to me?If i did get some kind of "disease" that cant be cure..what will happen to me?...Really dont wanna and dont dare to think about it...I really hope that i can get a message or wadever from her..but i know it wouldn't happen because i never gonna tell her about what happening to me...

In the past at least we can share the problems together..But now just seem like ignoring and totally silence...I REALLY HATE IT!!!....

如果我變成回憶If I Become a Memory(TANK)

I wonder could it be..when I was thinking about u & u were thinking of me.. suffering is stupid after all of this time....Did I lose my love to someone better? Does he love u like I do?...Been lonely since the day u went away...For me there's only u ,Why I never know what I've got till it's gone...

I wonder...did u realise how I feel...I wonder how long will I keep thinking about u..It take a moment to fall in love but it take a lifetime to forget about it.Maybe i am just not suitable for any serious kind of relationship....Everything had changed..really hope that i could reverse back the time & still be the same as in the past...

Miss Her Terribly.....

When i saw my friends with their love one happily, i am jealous and envious of them(Am i a loser to be jealous?)....I hope all of them can last long and happily.... but when i see they are so sweet together,my heart just sink... How i wish i could be like them...
Can she really forget how we past every single moment together?Can she really forget this relationship?The answer might be a mysterious foreva....

moody...

I miss the days past..

I miss everything that i once had

I feel pain for losing everything

I feel so lonely

I feel so sad

3 month past..

My eyes are hurting cause i can’t see you,
my lips are cold cause i can’t kiss you,
my arms are empty cause i can’t hold you,

and my heart is breaking cause I am not with you!

Holidays ..aka boring days....

HOLIDAY!!...2 weeks of holiday..its juz seem to be the same for me..Most of the time just stay at home..doing ntg...Sitting infront of the com..let me think abt alot of the past..Those wonderful n happy time that past with u...

Right now,i got the same feeling i have when u leave me...feel so empty within me...What's wrong with me?..Wonder why i so sad,I feel so lost.... i need comfort, i need love & also attention from u...

Maybe ever since the day u leave me, i am afraid to be alone...Even though i know love cant be force,but i really cant help it at time...How i wish i can have have someone to share my joy & sorrow..but will i be able to find someone after u?...I will forget u in my life even though i might not be able to be with u....i will nvr forget every moment u spent ur time with me....

Exam soon...no "mood" to update d..

donno wad to post..but juz wanna update this blog..

Speechlessssssssssss..........

When I dream, I dream of falling Falling, Falling Falling onto you When I dream, I dream of drowning Drowning, Drowning Longing for the shore, to breathe again Breathing the air which is your essence When I dream, I dream of burning Burning, Burning Burning bright, burning strong Longing for the water too put out the flame When I dream, I dream of darkness Darkness, Darkness The darkness devours me Waiting for the light, for the candle, which you hold When I dream, I dream of rain pouring Pouring, Pouring Drenching me with its coldness Feeling the blanket that you lay across me to give me warmth When I dream, I dream of you Saving me from all my fears When I dream, I dream of a heaven Where you and I can lay underneath sky And where you'll always be with me When I dream, I dream of forever When I dream, I wish it lasted When I dream, you never leave When I dream, my heart does not get deceived If only the dreams I dream would come true

Feeling Damn low low low!!

Life is nothing but a dream!!

Dream are meant to be left as a Dream, finally realize it .

to WCY

Don understand why is there alway bastards that like to invade ppl blog and talk nonsense.
I got no freedom to write what i wan for myself or did i ask idiot to look at my blog?
All i want is a place for me to drown my unhappiness!
 Is it wrong?
Just get the fuck out of my blog if any idiot don't like what i say.
        Learn something call privacy!!
God damn it lo, if i have the courage to end it will i have to be so stressful now?
Pathetic life !!
Pathetic Guy!!
No one care!!
No one love!!
Meant to be alone !!

Really really....miss u lotss..

Myspace Stuff

Birthday??still so boring...n lonely...

        birthday??so wad -_- still need to tuition.....i am happy tat could get bday wishing from u by sms..i am really appreciate it ...but...my birthday wish was hope tat u could back to my side..i don think it is possible...but i really hope so..wonder did u saw this blog?...if got chance i would ask u..will u forgive me n back to my side?..but i got no the courage to ask so...the answer might be a mystery forever...

Boringggg!!!!!!!!!

              its the 5th day of the holiday..its ending soon..but everything juz same...so freaking boring...all the thing keep repeat n repeating...Somehow i feel wanna chat with her but i dont dare to call her or even sms her ..i keep waiting at msn for her to on9 but she nvr on even from the 1st day of holiday..did she chged email?or blocked me from msn...izit after breaking cant b fren anymore?or she doesnt want me to hurt her once again?maybe this question will not hav any answer forever..
Where n when can i find my Solace?
Awaiting a dream that might never come true....
A wish that might never be fulfill,
Too many negative thoughts,
Too many craps to think n to ponder off,
Life is never going to be complete!

Feeling down...

           Thinking of the pass..we alway argue at some small matter thing.....now all come to an end...it wont happen anymore...maybe till love fades only i will understand to value every wonderful scenery but she has already left....Wonder if this a good decision...maybe we break would be better for both of us...
                          失去的恋爱难以勉强,忘掉一切,听着情歌总能满足一秒遐想...

旧事重演

       It passed so long tat i nvr post anything here le..i thought the latest post would b my last post cuz we were back together ...But now ..everything happen again..we were break once again..even the time we back together was short..but it really unforgetable...feel totally down now...donno how am i gonna continue writing............